Broken and Poured Out

I encourage the cast to "leave it all on the stage!" To allow themselves to be broken and poured out as a drink offering to Christ during the Passion Play.

We are not there yet - production is a week away. But I feel broken. In spirit. I am tired and weary and my body hurts. I feel poured out. What do I have left to give?

I pray that God pours into this broken vessel a fresh fire. A fresh wind. An annointing to give more.

I ask for the bloggers to pray for me.

It is hard for me to be transparent and ask for help. Tranparancy in the past has left me bleeding on an altar with wounds afflicted by the "holy." I was more hurt afterwards than before. And I am more than willing to give help but cannot ask for it.

But I need you all. I need healing. My joints and muscles ache. I cannot pick up a coffee cup without my arm hurting. Yet if I have my shoulder fixed, I will be unable to care for Ashley after her next shoulder. My heart is heavy for friends who are hurting and I am caring a feeling of "God you do it for others, why not us?"

Please pray for restoration.

Thankful Thursday

It's been a long week. Rehearsals. Set Construction. Followed by another rehearsals. Doctors appointments. School meetings.

My children have been on my last nerve most of the week. Unfortunately, most people I know I have danced around my nerves, tapping on them at random.

My loving husband has annoyed me to no end. Simply things. Nothing big. Just big in my mind.

Financial stresses are burdening me. Health problems after weighing me down.

And if I don't refocus my heart and mind and soul, I will "surely be ruined!" (Passion Play script!)

I am thankful. . .
. . .for Chris's talents. That he sees the good in people. That he watches out for his family.
. . .for Ashley's heart. That she wants to serve God. That she loves everyone deeply.
. . .for David. That he loves me deeply. Even when I seem to cost him more money that I could ever make!
. . .for the Passion Play cast - they are all working so hard. I know that. I hope they know I know that.
. . .for Doctor's who care.
. . .for friend's who love.
. . .for a God who sees the end from the beginning and will walk with me Never leave me.

Mother's Heart

"You are a gift from God." - My children have heard that from their conception. Where doctors said there would be no children, God gave us two. They are lovely. Happy.

Not perfect - just forgiven.

Today was Missions Sunday at our church and I the auditorium was crowded. I love the crowded! Our daughter sat with us; our two adopted kids found us and Chris went with the Youth. I didn't know where he was and began looking for him during worship.

And I found him.

On the front row. With his hands lifted in Praise to the Almighty King of Glory!

This mom's heart melted in gladness. To see the Gift God gave to us praising God himself.

Beautiful.

Sisterhood Award

Thanks Linny for the Award! I guess we're not the Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants, but more than Sisterhood for the Blogging Buddies!

Who do I nominate? Hmmmm. . .

Jill Palmer - You make me laugh! Thanks kids for providing so much fodder for your mother's writing!

Jo Lee - Your quotes often fuel my day.

Kristen Bleger - Another beautiful kid who makes me laugh. I can't wait to see the wonderful things God does in this family!

Tiffany Bleger - I love this family! Thanks for loving back!

Kathy Yarbrough Coles - You are one of the most talented women I know. Get into the studio and record "Flute for Thought"!!!

Linn Saunders - Thanks for sharing your life with us.

Seth and Maria Waters - You are faithful and God will be to you as well. Watch San Fran, here they come!!! (Yes, Seth is not a Sister but Maria is!)

Miss Jinny, Jenn and all the Water World of Youth and Children - I love reading these blogs!

Jenn Kline - Thank you for sharing Bill with Durango. The impact on this community will be everlasting.

Song of the Week

I love this song! As a cast, we declare this song over the Four Corners!


"God Of This City"

You're the God of this city
You're the King of these people
You're the Lord of this nation
You Are

For there is no one like our God
There is no one like our God

Greater things have yet to come
Greater things are still to be done in this City

You're the Lord of Creation
The Creator of all things
You're the King above all Kings
You Are

You're the strength in our weakness
You're the love to the broken
You're the joy in the sadness
You Are

Where glory shines from hearts alive
With praise for you and love for you
In this city
Greater things have yet to come
Great things are still to be done
In this city!

Thankful Thursday

A few minutes to go before this day is done, but here it is!

* Friends who will drive 15 hours to be with you.
* Friends that you can laugh with and cry with - all within 3 minutes in a crowded store
* Grace for those days you are so tired you can't move
* Peace that God gives when news is not so good
* Rest for the body and mind
* Tears that are happy and sad
* Children that you love so much it hurts
* Nieces and Nephews that make you smile
( who wouldn't smile at here sweet voices say,"KimKim" and "Auntie Kimmie"!)
* Weekends to be with my family

Hymn for Today

Great Is Thy Faithfulness
Thomas O. Chisholm (1866-1960)

Great is thy faithfulness, O God my Father
There is no shadow of turning with thee
Thou changest not thy compassions they fail not
As thou hast been thou forever will be

Great is thy faithfulness, great is thy faithfulness!
Morning by morning new mercies I see
All I have needed thy hand hath provided
Great is thy faithfulness, Lord unto me!

Summer and winter and springtime and harvest
Sun, moon, and stars in their courses above
Join with all nature in manifold witness
To thy great faithfulness, mercy and love

There is pardon for sin and a peace that endureth
Thine own dear presence to cheer and to guide

Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow

Blessings all mine, with ten thousand beside



Rest is that faithfulness today!